Meron akong abnormal na pananaw. Aaminin ko takot talaga akong masaktan at oo, madali akong masaktan kahit di niyo napapansin. Kaya nga maniniwala ba kayo na pangarap kong maging masokista?
... Sasaksakin ko kayo pag nag-isip kayo ng masama. Ibang term ang tinutukoy ko! ... Natatakot na nga ako sa mga iniisip ko minsan. Baka dalhin nalang nila ako sa mental isang araw o sa psychiatrist. Ang paraan ko kasi para maging masaya ay kontrahin ang negative thoughts with positve thoughts kaya I sometimes think overoptimistically, yah but sometimes with sarcasm. Minsan umaabot sa puntong di na makatotohanan. (Pero who will believe? I still act and look normal. Everyone is entitled to crazy thoughts sometimes) Pero hindi sa lahat ng oras effective ang strategy na ito. But tell me, mali ba ang pananaw ko? But before that let me elaborate...
Masochism - a psychological term meaning the enjoyment of pain, either physical or psychological, inflicted on oneself.
Para naman kapag nasaktan ako, "physically and emotionally", masaya pa rin ako. Isang paraan para maging manhid sa sakit. Pero kahit naman mga santo at martyr handa silang mag-undergo ng kahit anong paghihirap para lang sa Diyos, diba? O sige dahil dyan ibahin natin ang term. Gawin nating "masokista para sa Diyos." Yung tipong handa kang magpaalipin mismo "sa Diyos" at hindi sa tao. That won't be senseless. Eh di, hindi rin masama. Handa kang tiisin at daanin ang lahat ng pasakit sa mundo para lang sa Kanya.
Kahit nga sa religion, sabi "embrace your suffering." Teka... HIndi kaya, iyon na yung sikreto? Kung susuriin natin, yung mga "true and genuine Christians" parang kahit anong problema ang dumadaan sa kanila parang wala lang. Mababakas mo pa rin ang saya sa mukha nila, yung ngiting alam mong hindi kaplastikan o pagpapanggap. Is this the key to happiness? Malapit ko na ba malaman ang sagot sa matagal ko nang katanungan ito?
Suffering ang pinakamatinding kalaban natin ngayon. Maging makasalanan man o inosente, pare-pareho silang dumaranas nito. Sabi nga ni Buddha, "Life is suffering." So, ang solusyon... ironically is mahalin mo ito. After all, the reward is great at the end.
Yup, life is irony. I know we have to face reality, but tell me, what happines can I get from reality? There are many forces in our society that brings us down. Maybe finding happiness means opposing the disastrous reality. There is a fine line between reality and truth. Reality is what you see and perceive in the physical world but the truth is existing knowledge beyond reality and is found in spirituality. It's something you can achieve through deep reflection and enlightenment. Truth is Wisdom. God is the source of truth and only the truth can set you free.
2 Cor 12: 7-10 "I was given a thorn in my flesh, a true messenger of Satan to slap me in the face. Three times I prayed to the Lord that it leave me, but He answered, "My grace is enough for you, my great strength is revealed in weakness."
Gladly, then, I will boast of my weakness that the strength of Christ be mine. So I rejoice, when I suffer infirmities, humiliations, want, persecutions: all for Christ! For when I am weak, then I am strong."
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